Fate.

Have you ever had a moment where you have placed your utmost effort into obtaining a certain something? This certain something that you've been wanting and you actually did get it! But, that was only the first obstacle in order to grasp that something to turn it into a reality and there are many more ahead of you and you just can't seem to get through the rest..

 I just did. With a single word of a 'no' uttered, a dream shattered, hopes drenched with (non-existing) tears and that weight of sadness due to a word just buried me really low. It wasn't really something unexpected, it was all a 50-50 chance. More of like a luck. Something that I should or not be prepared for. Some have said that I should already be thankful with whatever I have achieved for now, the future is partly secured and I don't have to worry about it. I am thankful for it, don't worry. But that have made me realised, most of the things that you dream to have are certainly hard to achieve so it would be a such waste if I didn't try and have a go at it first. And I did try and I'd say it wasn't a waste at all. It's just great to have that feeling of being accepted into some place you've dreamed to go one day. So that feeling will just keep on haunting you for the many years to come so you will try your best in obtaining again it in the future. I'm surely not giving up. Just like most dreams, not all may come true. Some are just on hold for the time being, for later in the future. Some dreams are just meant to remained as dreams. Some may be replaced by an even better one. InshaAllah. As disappointed as I am right now going through these events, but hey, maybe this IS the path I'm supposed to struggle through. Maybe this is it. 'Takdir Allah adalah yang terbaik.' Accepting your fate is the greatest option!

 Allah works in His mysterious ways, His plans will always (no doubt) remain as the best.